Shadow Reaper's Journal

Well I haven't posted in a while so it is random?!?!

Yoinked from darkyo 

( Long post is long )

Merry Xmas

Now if your reading this on xmas, you are very sad and get a gf / bf (what every suits you), and if you have one go get laid tomoz as well yer it's christmas but fuck you need a better life then this.

P.S. Shadow has a new girlfriend now =)

So well I finally did it all in one go. I went over the edge and did what I had been fearing to do for around 18 months now, pushing people to the point they would leave. I am really sorry for doing it, but as much as I feel doing could of ended swingamers, well it had to be done. Yer it caused me to be banned and piss a lot of people off, but it had to be done sometime to prevent the place totally self destructing which would of happened I felt by the end of the year. To kas and jimmy especially I am seriously sorry for putting you though the mess I did. To all those who helped build swingamers to what it was before the mess came crumbing down, please help it become strong like it once was as it can. I am deciding to keep away from everyone for a while so I do get better (thus why I asked jimmy to ban me). But even after, I won't be apart of the staff as the experience in the end has kind of tramatised me in taking responcibility in general.

As for the new house, it's awesome and hoping to have the house warming party and maybe a lan in a few weeks time

Well I finally did it, I got really stuck into the trolls, though at a heavy cost to myself, and now after stressing out massively after over 50 warnings given I have decided the only way I can keep my health even partly able to given a chance is to ban myself. I wish I didn't have to do it, but yer, unfortually it is the only way to stop myself from doing excessive stuff :(

I will back in swingamers in july!

I think there maybe an issue with the server, it seems to be running faster then time =/

Started on the swingamers site as I am tired of others starting and then stopping. Got the home page sort of done, news linking into the forum, profile main page, user info showing for each user done. Though still a lot still to do.

Time to go to a party, laterz - shadow out!

Well been busy as of late, work is back and is like I suspected it would, exhausting me and pushing me to limits again. Having also to fix up everyone's computer is doing it futher. Feeling like it is still going down hill. I want my holiday (of what is left of it).

Yer, I'm poor again. I spent over $500 today on stuff

$20 on food
$30 on a usb keyboard (for cousin)
$75 DDR RAM (for my cousin)
$130 500 GB Sata HDD
$250 on plushies and that

I think I did more then most girls I know

The plushies and that were:
 1 red yoshi (named kas)
 1 dark blue yoshi (named lewin)
 1 pink yoshi (named tora)
 1 green yoshi (named yoshi <_<)
 1 green giant mushroom
 1 red giant mushroom
 1 FMA pocket watch/ ring/ necklace set
 1 DBZ wallet (needed a new one)

I got them all from nyuanime's shop. So much awesome stuff there and I am going to get ordered the other 4 yoshi's =D. Must have yoshi army!

Also, hate connex so much for a cancelled train, then delayed train. Staying with cousin is awesome, have to go home tomorrow, ummm that's about it, laterz

P.S. I told you  swiftylily you should have come over!

Well it's been around 2 weeks or so since I was properly home for more then changing clothes and gettin moneys. I have been to grey's house and kas's place and I so, so thank them for their hospitality (especially kas (don't know how she put up with me for so long @_@)), anywya I'm now house sitting at my cousins place with one of my other cousins til the 27th. All I really have to do is keep the place tidy and feed the cats every day. Yer, there is always a downside, though it's that there isn't any food to eat here ='(. So after I go and look at shinies, and go and get new toys for my pc, and fix my cousins pc, I am going to get some. Goin to be a busy day tomoz.....

P.S. A little tipsy as well.

Well a number of things have happened recently,  I am yet again physically and mentally drained. The swingamer forum update finally have been completed (22 hours after it started -_-"). Finally just before, got my mum to see things my way and got my allowance back. I am cleaning my room atm as I want to get things cleaned up, as well as get it looking half nice before the end of the year. I'm leaving to goto Grey's place tomorrow, so I also need all my clothes washed and that so that I won't smell like a bum while I am away.

Next month is also looking pretty hectic. 6 parties, 3 birthdays, and I am also house sitting on top of the regular stuff of work, games projects and making sure swingamers keeps running.

Anyways, time to clean - shadow out!

What did I get, well around $150 in money, some chocolates, some biscuits, a puzzle, a number of chirstmas cards, and lots of merry chirstmas wishes. Meh, not the best I have ever gotten, though I'm thankful for what I get.    

Well I get home after yet another day of travel and find a big wet patch on my bed where bag was. Look inside and one of the drinks of ribenna has leaked and the entire bottom of the bag is covered in it. Besides a c++ text book, the ds was in there (I was unaware of this). So it's dead, I turn it on and all it does is turn it's self off again. :'(

Well I kind of got mum to agree to allow me to move out. I have to show her in financial terms I can do it, though that is pretty easy compared to actually even getting this far. Although doing an all nighter and now having a c++ lecture to go to is not nice :(

Well it's been over a month since I last posted, and things are looking both up and down

I still have to tell mum about moving out. I am thinking about doing that on friday or monday week after all my major assignments next week are done with. Also, work is bothering me as I need to finize things so I can deal with problem 1 more of.

Though on the upside, I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel in my assignments in I have gotten on top of a number of them although I still have a number of nights to go.

Well another "spring break" as the americans call it has come and gone and I know two things happened from it.
 1. I did 4x the amount of work I normally do
 2. I enjoyed my break
Both of these are the normal though I think even I overdid myself this time.

There was manifest for 3 days. I did managed to not volunteer for 6 hours I think it was if that. The 2nd and 3rd days were long though I enjoyed myself. I think I did 10 hours the first day and 15 or so the second before the after party. I didn't mind it at all and they gave up on a timesheet for me on sunday =P. The after party started out a bit crap though by the end of the night I really enjoyed it alot. Though once we left the pub, some who got sick basically was the down but which I helped them back to the hostel. Work the next day wasn't pretty and by the end I was ready for bed as I had no sleep.

Work is going good though as this week has been so busy it is really been more like I have tried to get things done as much as possible though there are only certain things I can do in the end. Most of it I did manage to get done in time so that was good.

Grey's tea party was one great party I believe. Although it was an afternoon/ evening thing without alcohol I actually prefered it in the end as we had some nice food with modern day tea (coke). Then went and played tiggie in a nearby park and later on we got chips. After that I went (unplanned =P) to see stardust with them. I was actually suprised I really did like that more then I thought I would though the start was boring and dry in my opinion.

SwinLan 5 (UDIE 5) was on this weekend, as per normal the SSAA have stuffed up again in not only not informing security weon what was going on, but also double booking the room -_-. I spent almost an hour getting security to unlock the doors so I could just get in. Lucky I was lazy and didn't move most of the tables down this time as we ended upstairs on level 4. Though besides the early dramas, it was a really good lan, though I really think we need to cost everything properly next time around. Though it seemed to run really well with pleant of games and I even figured out on how to get the internet working on the lan (even if it lasted all of 3 min each time).
I think now I really do have to focus on the last 6 weeks of uni then the exams I need to start studying for now which I probally won't =S. I have a long list of assignments to do, and also still that computer(s) for dad. I have the anime party coming up, though I have a very bad feeling that will be a total failure.

Well I am yet again stalling on doing work for class. Not only that I am going to get a job to do even more work -_-"

Anyways, I think the thing with my weight should be fixed by end of semester completing my new years resolution (first time I have kept one of those in years). I am still wanting to move out of home though I know I can't til end of uni year which is 8 or so weeks away.

I think I am needing a holiday, well it has been over 2 years since the last one basically. Things have been good and bad recently as I have posted, though I have so many things to do. I have relized I am doing too much and to tell the truth, I think it's causing me to over work and I am affraid of another burn out.

So I am thinking about going away for a few days to benella. A nice train ride and stay away from technology will do me good I think. Give me some time to think about a lot of things and give me a break for the final weeks before the exams. I might take some work with me, maybe. Just some reading for if I get bored though I think I won't.

Well I had some fun, it's 4:45 am in the morning and I am posting in my LJ, I must be back to normal (well hopefully). Anyways, the reason I am up is I have been doing some bits and pieces on gundams.net. I have just done all the music stuff in finding and collecting infomation and I guess I let time slip by.

Business of Games was awesome as per usual though I am really hating the early stats I have on tuesday and wednesday mornings.

Yet again I think I have left the assignments all to the last minute again -_-. Ued Is due tomoz and PoDG is due on tuesday, along with programming and net tech stuff being needing to be done. I think that I am doing so much for ued though I am unsure if it's just me going and doing stuff too detailed or it's I'm slacking off again, arggggg!!!

Time for the first all niter of the semester =(